And I look like it too...

I told one of my co-workers today that I felt like crap and being her supportive peppy self she said "And you look...." Then she rephrased herself "Uh I mean you don't look like crap but you look like you feel like crap." Thanks...I think not.

Me looking and feeling crappy

Look at those horrid dark circles!
(This is where you all say Awwww, poor thing)

So again I feel like crap. Not like the 'long day with noisy students' crap but the real 'stuffed head, plugged nostrils, sore throat, painful cough (good for my abs?) and exhausted' kind of crap. (Ok now I have even said that word too much) Am I disappointed? YES! I was almost finished with two weeks of teaching my PreK class when I felt the cold coming on. (I thought I had avoided the inevitable) And of course as usual it hit me like a doozy. I slept all day Saturday and Sunday and barely made it through yesterday. I woke up this morning with no voice at all. I went to work but came home at lunch. What is the point of whispering to 15 five year olds? Despite what you may think it is like trying to get that last little sip out of the milk jug. Its just not happening.
Then I asked myself a very reflective question....
What is it with me and this profession? I always get sick and I complain about long days and noisy kids. I guess it is a little too late to re evaluate my options of what I want to do when I graduate but some days there is a little voice that yells WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?!!? While I enjoy working and teaching children, they really have a hard time listening and NEVER cover their mouths. They tattle and cry and whine and fight. I even had ninja wrestlers today (just picture that for a minute) What a gong show!
To make nice I do really like to teach....when the students are a few years older and can wash their own hands and do up their own zippers. However their is just something about the hugs and kisses (really they kiss me with sticky lips) that melts my heart everyday. When I walked out the door today one student told me to feel better and called me beautiful. Another whispered quietly that I was his true love (exact words I promise) So I guess I will take two and call you all in the morning....or at least after I do circle time and play Simon Says 27 more times.