Me? A Modern Mother...

It's official... I am pregnant. OK so you all know that but now my body is reminding me of it. The other day my back was killing...killing me. I don't think I have ever...ever experienced pain in that area and I was at a loss for what to do. I had just talked to my mom who had shocked me with some unexpected news that left me feeling like I was falling off the baby attention pedestal that I had situated myself on. Gray and I had also just spent the afternoon at Babies R Us realizing that everything is super expensive brand new and totally adorable to boot!! Needless to say I was kinda depressed. Long day, achy bones, pity party...you name it. I was feeling it. To top it off I decided to start cleaning the kitchen and dropped a can directly on my toe It was a small but heavy can. I was done. I burst into tears and leaned on the counter just sobbing. Poor Gray didn't know what to do. He sweetly started me a bath which has been my nightly tradition for a while and tried to help me feel better. I jumped into the tub only to have my feet scalded with the water which left me wailing all over again. And then I realized something. I was gasping for breath and really crying except there were no tears. What? I was quite positively having a fit. I was sobbing and hiccuping and jumping from foot to foot and I wasn't even producing a drop of moisture. What a joke. Even when I tried to squeeze some tears out I ended up just hurting my eyes. I came to one conclusion. Pregnancy had dried me out. I had a small mini cry when I found out I wasn't having a girl but that was just a squirt of water and didn't count!

I guess I am just looking for some aspect of my life that has remained the same and I can't find anything...

So I have been super achy for the last couple of weeks and have tried a bazillion stretches and back flips to relieve some of the pain. The sad thing is that this seems like a pain I can't stretch or adjust away. Mostly my hips are on fire but there also seems to be a giant gas bubble lodged in my stomach that just wants to chill. So between moaning on the floor and gulping fiber supplements I am pretty pathetic.

Gray is gone ALL DAY...all day (14 hours) and is always ready to party when he has time which my body does not exactly agree with. So we have been hanging out a lot at home which just encourages me to slowly freak out about everything baby.

We are actually quite the pair...baby and me. We sleep, we eat, we try to exercise and then we sleep again. In between we browse websites for boy names that we like (no luck) and try to find cheap deals and wheels (stroller) that are somewhat affordable. And then we cry fake crocodile tears because everything is so expensive.

So to make me more of a modern mother let me know what are the absolute essentials you need for a new born. What should I absolutely buy brand new (besides diapers) and what are some things that I can get used? I mean there is so much... clothes, blankets, pacifiers, bottles, swaddle wrap thingys, bouncy chair, bassinet, baby bed, stroller, car seat, shoes, breast pump, bottle warmer, diaper pail, rocking chair, swing... and that is just to start. So fill me in... I am kinda overwhelmed!

PS I do have a pic of me at like 21 weeks or so. I just forgot where I put the camera cord...and the camera!

Modern Mother 3: The freak out that WAS!

Are you getting bored with my mad focus on everything baby? I hope some of you don't feel alienated because you don't have kids. I promise...

I AM NOT IGNORING YOU!
Please comment and let me know what you think even in you don't have any children. I personally thought I was kind of a non-experienced expert and told people what I thought about everything so feel free to include yourself in any of these posts!!

I just have a bazillion questions and I love that all of you are so helpful and giving with your
Baby 101 info.

I am learning so much!
(Thanks!)
For example I have finally felt the baby move and surprisingly it does feel like some motion in my intestines (gassy) but it mostly feels like there is a brick in the pit of my stomach that's just in the way. When baby moves it feels like my stomach is rolling over. It doesn't make me sick or anything but it is a weird feeling and it is getting more and more frequent.

And it hit me just the other day (to my dismay) that the reason I am not totally showing is because of my already existing gut. Long story short, it started to grow during college and has kinda just stuck around. Some of my pants still fit because...
my gut still fits in them.
So I was just in denial.
Normally I look like a slightly pregnant woman...hahhaaa

Now onto other news. A week ago we found out the sex of our baby:

BOY

I was so weirded out by that info when I first heard it. The ultrasound tech asked if we wanted to know and since I was bursting with excitement and pretty sure of myself, I about swallowed my tongue when she showed us the 'equipment'
She even used the technical terms (which I have never used frequently and am a little uncomfortable using now)
As I blushed deeply and told Gray 'Congrats Dad' I just felt a sinking feeling in my stomach.
Give me a chance to explain.
You see, I didn't even think it was genetically possible for me to have a boy first. I am the oldest of 5 kids, four of which are girls. On both my mom and dad's side, the first child has ALWAYS been a girl. My dad's parents have two (2) grandsons and seven (7) granddaughters...
My mom's parents have 7 grandsons and 12 granddaughters.
Boys are just highly unusual in my family so I was 100% convinced I was having a girl.
It didn't even cross my mind that I wouldn't have a girl first.
So I was in shock.
My mind had been full of DIY bows and headbands and ruffle butt skirts and pink and curls. To suddenly have to change those thoughts to frogs and robots and dinosaurs and camo and blue
was a bit overwhelming.
Not to mention the whole mechanics of a boy ( I have a deep fear of getting pee in my mouth...ahhhh)
So I had my cry and cuddled with Gray (who was very understanding although he was secretly rolling his eyes at me). I put on my big girl panties and starting thinking of little boy undies.
It may sound silly to you but I just was super unprepared for a boy...
mostly because the male population is slightly lacking in my family.

Good news though. It has been a week and I have come to terms with this little son (whoa that is the first time I have said that) growing inside me.
While it is true that I am unprepared for most baby things and boy parts, I am grateful to have a healthy little man doubling in size each week. It is a blessing to be pregnant and I am just gonna tuck my bows and curls back into my heart for the next child (dear me I can't have TWO boys)
And according to most of you
BOYS love their moms and are less dramatic. And there are a few cute clothes out there...although I have yet to find and purchase any.

In the end I am just happy with having a baby. It is going to be an adventure and a life changing event and no matter what I am kinda looking forward to it.

Now onto my weekly question. I am kinda lazy...ah I finally said it. I sleep in and eat junk most days. I try to fit in some exercise and fruits and veggies but I just don't love all that.

So enlighten me.

What kind of exercise did you do daily?
AND
What kind of food and snacks did you eat?

I am eagerly awaiting your motivational answers!!

(RIP Steve Jobs)